- Shia LaBeouf recently appeared on a recent episode of the "Real Ones" podcast.
- The actor addressed ex-girlfriend FKA Twigs' 2020 lawsuit where she accused him of "relentless abuse."
- He also revealed that he considered suicide after the allegations were made public.
Actor and director Shia LaBeouf addressed allegations from a 2020 lawsuit in which singer FKA Twigs accused him of "relentless abuse."
LaBeouf appeared on an episode of actor Jon Bernthal's "Real Ones" podcast Friday where he spoke publicly about the allegations made against him by ex-girlfriends Twigs and stylist Karolyn Pho.
"I hurt that woman," LaBeouf said on the podcast. "And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people, and many other people before that woman."
"I was a pleasure-seeking, selfish, self-centered, dishonest, inconsiderate, fearful human being. When I think about what my life has become, and what it is now, like what my purpose is now, I need to be useful," he said. "And when I look at this #MeToo environment, there's not a whole lot of dudes that are taking accountability."
"I fucked up bad. Like crash and burn type shit. Hurt a lot of people, and I'm fully aware of that," he continued.
LaBeouf did not directly refer to Twigs by name on the show, however, she was directly referenced in an email he wrote to director Olivia Wilde that Variety published on Friday. In the message LaBeouf responds to rumors that he was fired from Wilde's film "Don't Worry Darling," claiming instead that he "quit" the movie on his own terms.
"My failings with Twigs are fundamental and real, but they are not the narrative that has been presented," LaBeouf wrote, according to the outlet.
LaBeouf reveals he considered suicide after Twigs' allegations were made public
According to LaBeouf, when he first heard the accusations made against him he wanted to refute them publicly. "I wanted to hit Twitter and be like, 'Look, I got receipts," he told Bernthal.
"Had she not intervened in my life and not created the avenue for me to experience ego death, I'd either have a really mediocre existence or I'd be dead in full," LaBeouf continued, adding that shortly after the allegations, he contemplated suicide.
"I went and loaded up a gun and sat on my table. I was gonna kill myself," he said.
During the "Real Ones" episode, LaBeouf goes on to call the unnamed woman, assumed to be Twigs, a "saint."
Representatives for LaBeouf did not immediately respond to Insider's request for comment.
In the 2020 lawsuit, FKA Twigs accused LaBeouf of sexual battery, assault, and infliction of emotional distress
The actor met the "Cellophane" singer while filming his 2019 film "Honey Boy" and they began dating soon after. According to Entertainment Weekly, LaBeouf and Twigs were together for less than a year.
In 2020, Twigs, whose birth name is Tahliah Debrett Barnett, accused LaBeouf of attacking and strangling her, knowingly infecting her with an STD, and other instances of physical and emotional abuse, according to The New York Times.
In February 2021, Twigs appeared on the cover of Elle, telling the publication "It's a miracle I came out alive," Insider's Callie Ahlgrim reported. In the cover story, Twigs described LaBeouf's behavior as "calculated, systematic, tricky, and mazelike."
LaBeouf wrote in an email to The Times that "many of these allegations are not true."
In May 2021, Insider's Zac Ntim reported a judge placed LaBeouf in a judicial diversion program in order to avoid jail time for battery and petty theft charges from 2020. The program included mandatory weekly therapy, anger management classes, and a 12-step sobriety program.
LaBeouf's run-ins with the law weren't the only controversies the actor faced in his career. An Entertainment Tonight exclusive video from 2015 showed LaBeouf arguing with his then-girlfriend, Mia Goth, telling her, "This is the kind of shit that makes a person abusive" and later telling a driver who can't be seen on camera, "If I'd have stayed there, I would've killed her."